Can I go back just to this last weekend on our anniversary and stay there? Forever maybe?

Every time I think I've wrapped my head around the idea of my all changing life I suddenly realize really quickly that I am dead wrong. My belly is growing by the day and the fact that I will have a little life to take care of in less than three weeks scares the hell out of me. Don't get me wrong, I am excited to have a baby but I am so scared. I still feel like a child myself most of the time. She will be so beautiful and I know the love of my life after I have her, but everything about giving labor and being a mom is super hard for me to grasp right now!

We had such a relaxing weekend up in park city for our anniversary! It was nice to just be there... We had nowhere that we needed to get to, no time crunch, and I spend the most money I have ever spent in my life on one meal at one time. Little did I know I booked the most expensive restaurant at the resort. Courtesy of them not posting their prices online... I should have known... but it sure was good :)

Our puppy is getting so big by the day! I can't believe it. He's been sick on and off but he seems to be getting better. Poor little guy.

Just a small update for now... i'll try to come back later :) 

It has been SOO long since I've written and so much has happened. February is the last time and my life looks drastically different.

Seth and I bought our first home which at first was a hard adjustment for me but I'm loving it. It's the perfect size for us and I'm starting to get the hang of how to keep it clean :) Going from a 600 square foot apartment to a two story home is a big change in cleaning responsibilities. Not to mention the million fruit tree's we have in our yard. It's a little overwhelming at times. We have an apricot tree, cherry tree, plum tree, pear tree, two walnut tree, an apple tree, and grape vines. Talk about a lot of upkeep. Most of my summer has consisted of picking up fruit off the ground so it doesn't rot. It's definitely one of the most least fun activities I can say I take part in. We love our home and are growing into it quite nicely.

So, if we thought that buying a house wasn't enough of a heart attack, a week or two after we moved in, we got the surprising news that I was pregnant. Now, I was hysterical when I found out. Barely 7 months after we had gotten married and bought our home we had that overwhelming news dropped on us. This definitely was not the way we pictured things. However, god has surely taken care of us. The Monday after we found out my husband received a job promotion and ever since then we have been working our butts off to pay stuff off. During this crazy period we bought our first puppy Ozzy! He sure is a cutie but kind of a crazy psycho. He's so full of energy and life and it's been much harder to deal with him than I thought. I still love him every day though and he's getting SO BIG!!

So, this brings me to my current day..... I am 6 months pregnant and it's been a rocky road. I have been sick or in pain for most of my pregnancy but I'm just starting to feel better. We are having a precious baby girl that we will name Olivia Mikele Simmons. I bought my first outfits for her today and it was such a joyous feeling. She is moving around like a worm in my stomach and I still have a hard time wrapping my head around the fact that one, my body is making a baby, and two, that I am actually going to deliver and have a child. This is the scariest thing in my opinion that can ever happen to a person. I worry everyday about my little girl and it is so weird to think of myself as a mommy. I am however, so ecstatic for it. She will be beautiful :) More to come later... Hopefully!!!

Wow, it's been such a long time since I've written anything. pretty much 3 months. I go through times where I love blogging/writing and then other times I just never can find anything to say. Which is weird because my life changes drastically from day to day. A recap on the last little while....

Being married is one of the greatest but most challenging things that a person will ever do. My body has been through the ringer since my wedding in Sept.
November and December I was plagued with sickness. It seems like every time I kicked a sickness there was another one waiting right behind it in line. It was frustrating not only for me but my husband and most definitely my wallet.
January has been the first month that I have really felt pretty normal. My sleeping pattern, which was badly disrupted when I got married is finally starting to become normal again. I only usually get up now one time during the night which is pretty normal for me. Everything is going pretty well!

Seth and I are currently trying to implement a big change in our life. We've been doing some weight loss/gain challenges. Needless to say, compared to him I have not been successful. It's pretty frustrating. I have been working my ass off at the gym, eating well, and still have not lost a single lb. The good thing is that my body (I think anyways) is a tad toner. We are going to be in a wedding on May 25 and I just really would like to not be self conscious walking down the isle again haha.

School is so awesome! I am currently taking Biology and Geography and I feel so glad to be back in school. This sounds so nerdy but I forgot how much I LOVE learning. Who would have thought that Kirsty would love BIOLOGY?? But I do. It's so interesting :) Geography is interesting too I just am liking biology much more.

For not writing I didn't have very much to say but maybe as I start to write again things will come more smooth. Until next time....

Married Life

So, today is Monday- Back to real life
Post honeymoon is SO HARD.
My wedding day went extremely well with very little freak outs and stress. We worked all day long and didn't stop til the late hours of the night. I am so grateful for everyone who helped out during the wedding and also before and after. It could not have been done without all the help we had.

We left for Mexico on Sunday morning at 7:15 AM. The flight there went great although we almost missed our connecting flight to Mexico. We barely caught it and arrived on time. Initially I was terrified to be in Mexico. You hear all the horror stories about Mexico and how scary it is right now. Fortunately, it was amazing. Monday we just hung out at our hotel and swam and ate food. I have honestly never consumed so much food before in my life. Buffet style for every meal and the food in Mexico I feel is much worse than the food here (caloric/fat wise) Taste wise, Delicious!!! I was terrified that I had ballooned up in Mexico but came home and didn't gain any weight. It was probably because every single day there was collectively probably about a liter of sweat that left my body. This is NO JOKE! I have never ever in my life sweat as much as I did in Mexico. It was down right disgusting. I also took more showers in one week than I have ever. 1-3 showers a day depending on the days activities. It was absolutely crazy.

Tuesday was the most awesome day. We took a boat ride to this island where we then took a truck into the jungle. When we arrived to where we were suppose to be we rode Mules to the top of the jungle and then we zip lined down to the bottom again. We also propelled down two waterfalls. It was one of the most adventurous and scariest things I've done but SO WORTH IT.

Wednesday it was a little rainy but we ate food, went in the ocean, swam in the pool, went to the zoo, and probably other things that I'm forgetting. The Zoo was really fun. You got to feed the animals it was just very hot!!!

Thursday my poor husband got sick. He slept ALL day. I was super lonely and I felt so bad for him. We did however make it to Rhythms of the night which is a Mexican history type show/dance they put on. It was so much fun and they also fed us a great dinner.

Friday we went to a private island and swam with the Fish. It was amazing!!! We snorkeled and I have never seen so many fish in my entire life and the funny thing was they were all just swimming around us. I had a water proof camera that I really hope worked under water. It was amazing.

Saturday we packed and came back to the US. I was so happy to be home but so sad to have to leave Mexico. It was so much fun.

We have currently been putting everything together for the apartment and it is hard work. We got a lot of great gifts that we are putting to use.

Getting married is awesome and I love being married. My husband is an amazing man and we are adjusting to life quite well. Some current hard parts......

Learning to sleep with someone is so hard. I like to have a whole bed to myself because when I sleep I sprawl out. You can't do that with a husband haha but I still love it. I like waking up and he's there. It's comforting.

Also, learning that I have someone else now to consider. I can't do whatever I want :p Work in progress!

I am so excited for the fall, Halloween, and the holidays. It's going to be Awesome!!!!

This day marks the last week that I will be a single unmarried woman. In a little under 6 days I will be married to the man that I have dreamed about since I was a little girl. It hits me in waves that my life will be so different in such a short time. Lately I've felt like events that happen in my life don't affect me as much as they used to. Maybe it's because I don't think about it all that often in knowing that I can worry myself to death. I know I will be unbelievably nervous on Saturday but I can't wait for it. I've been only able to imagine how sweet and wonderful it will be to fall asleep next to the man I love and wake up next to him but next week it will be the real thing. Not to mention be completely relaxed and laying on a beach for a week straight. I have never been on a vacation that long and it only seems appropriate for me to experience it all on my honeymoon. I've been trying to get used to the word "husband" but it's so foreign. I never thought this day would come but it's coming and approaching fast!

I've started moving my stuff into our apartment and last night I was there by myself for a little while and right there at the kitchen sink while washing dishes I almost started crying. For one, I don't like being alone at night and another, I'm just so happy and scared at the same time. I can't believe this is my life anymore. My life has taken a complete turn. I can't ever remember being "happy" and content with things as little as 3 years back. I was always looking for something better or something that could make me feel better. Currently days pass so quickly and I have forgotten everything that ever used to make me so crippling depressed. God has changed my life so much. I remember praying at night half heartedly for God to change my life and bring a godly man into it. It's evident now that he has been there, listened to my blistered heart and completely changed me. I was so jaded and now I do believe in genuine real love and  that anyone is capable of loving and being loved to their full potential. I think differently now and want to live my life according to God's standards. Maybe I'm just rambling at this point and not making much sense but I just feel overwhelmed with all these things but at the same time so happy.

Time

So, I'm getting married in 23 DAYS!!! I can not believe it is so soon. I can't wait though. The months from June til now have been a huge blur. With so much planning and moving and just trying to stay on top of things, it's been tough. I am truly blessed though and although I get so nervous every time I think of my wedding day, I am ecstatic. Life is truly about to take the biggest turn that you can ever take in your life. I will spend the rest of my life with Seth and it's a comforting feeling. Knowing that I have found that love that so many people are still searching for out there is comforting and I can not wait to start our life together.

We booked our honeymoon in Mexico! I've never been out of the country before and I'm a little nervous to go. We have read a million reviews on the place we'll be staying and we are going to have the time of our life :)

It's so weird to think about that everything that is "off limits" when your dating we will now get to experience. I have been itching to go on another vaca, go camping, and just travel but it's really hard when your not married! We can do whatever we want now without worry and it's going to be a GREAT thing!

I feel so blessed as we enter marriage! We've had so much support and friendships and it's been amazing!

I don't nearly write as much as I used to and I miss it sometimes.
My updates in life right now are so significant that I have a hard time keeping up. We have 72 days until our wedding. Sometimes it seems like time is moving at snails pace and then I realize that it's moving at the speed of light. We have been together now for 1 year, 6 months, and 12 days and it feels like just yesterday that we had our first date. This is the speed life will be from now on I guess. I want to make an effort to slow down and enjoy the great things in life.

We found a little apartment that we will move into once we're married and I couldn't be more ecstatic. He will move in about 3 weeks and get the place started. I'm so happy to know that in just a short couple of months we'll be living together and sharing life's joys and trials. It will be a growing but an amazing thing.