This day marks the last week that I will be a single unmarried woman. In a little under 6 days I will be married to the man that I have dreamed about since I was a little girl. It hits me in waves that my life will be so different in such a short time. Lately I've felt like events that happen in my life don't affect me as much as they used to. Maybe it's because I don't think about it all that often in knowing that I can worry myself to death. I know I will be unbelievably nervous on Saturday but I can't wait for it. I've been only able to imagine how sweet and wonderful it will be to fall asleep next to the man I love and wake up next to him but next week it will be the real thing. Not to mention be completely relaxed and laying on a beach for a week straight. I have never been on a vacation that long and it only seems appropriate for me to experience it all on my honeymoon. I've been trying to get used to the word "husband" but it's so foreign. I never thought this day would come but it's coming and approaching fast!
I've started moving my stuff into our apartment and last night I was there by myself for a little while and right there at the kitchen sink while washing dishes I almost started crying. For one, I don't like being alone at night and another, I'm just so happy and scared at the same time. I can't believe this is my life anymore. My life has taken a complete turn. I can't ever remember being "happy" and content with things as little as 3 years back. I was always looking for something better or something that could make me feel better. Currently days pass so quickly and I have forgotten everything that ever used to make me so crippling depressed. God has changed my life so much. I remember praying at night half heartedly for God to change my life and bring a godly man into it. It's evident now that he has been there, listened to my blistered heart and completely changed me. I was so jaded and now I do believe in genuine real love and that anyone is capable of loving and being loved to their full potential. I think differently now and want to live my life according to God's standards. Maybe I'm just rambling at this point and not making much sense but I just feel overwhelmed with all these things but at the same time so happy.
I've started moving my stuff into our apartment and last night I was there by myself for a little while and right there at the kitchen sink while washing dishes I almost started crying. For one, I don't like being alone at night and another, I'm just so happy and scared at the same time. I can't believe this is my life anymore. My life has taken a complete turn. I can't ever remember being "happy" and content with things as little as 3 years back. I was always looking for something better or something that could make me feel better. Currently days pass so quickly and I have forgotten everything that ever used to make me so crippling depressed. God has changed my life so much. I remember praying at night half heartedly for God to change my life and bring a godly man into it. It's evident now that he has been there, listened to my blistered heart and completely changed me. I was so jaded and now I do believe in genuine real love and that anyone is capable of loving and being loved to their full potential. I think differently now and want to live my life according to God's standards. Maybe I'm just rambling at this point and not making much sense but I just feel overwhelmed with all these things but at the same time so happy.
