Cloning?

So, I'm doing a little studying and right now I'm reading about Cloning and it is one of the most unsettling things I've ever read. I just honestly can't believe our world has really come to this. I'm wondering if anyone is surprised by this or feels the way I do. I've never really been to interested in this subject or anything else that goes along with it because in all honesty it scares the hell out of me but it's now a required chapter of reading that I have to read. Why does the human race think this is okay? Who gave us the right to mess with human life. I'm pretty sure no one did.  I could certainly go on but I have to get back to studying...This sure has put a huge damper on my night.

A little girl that I didn't even know blew me a kiss today.. It was probably one of the cutest things i've ever seen :)

I've always wanted to live outside of Utah. Somewhere warm and preferably with a beach. Who wouldn't right? However, stories that are surfacing in the news make me feel content in staying right where I am. I feel like Utah is probably the perfect place to live in some instances. One to be specific... Natural Disasters. I don't ever have the worry of my home blowing away in 90 mile an hour winds or it being swept away by tsunami waves. The biggest worries I can face are probably a fire, which I hope to never have, an earth quake, flooding, which so many people have experienced lately, and maybe a couple more. I just feel a lot safer here than the people in other parts of the world going through what they are going through now. My heart goes out to them because I don't know what I would do if one day I had a home and the next day all my personal belongings and the place I called home was taken from me. Not to mention the danger, having that chance to lose someone close to you who you love. So, all things considered... I think I will not be wishing I lived somewhere else, especially close to the beach. I think I'll be content in visiting...For now :)

Why is that we as people, even though we know something may be good for us and we know it will make us feel better tend to do the complete opposite. For instance, I'm in a downer mood today. I can admit, and I have been all day. Don't know why, it's just one of those days. I listen this morning to good uplifting music while i'm getting ready (casting crowns) and it lifts my spirits ultimately making the morning better. Why can't I do this every morning? Usually what is happening is I put on something that might be a tad harsher that ultimately ends up bumming me out more. Another big example... I'm tired all the time. When I feel like crap I know without a shadow of a doubt that if I go to the gym for an hour or so I will feel better. I know this from expirience. So, why wouldn't I do this all the time and why is it still SO hard for me sometimes to go to the gym. I'm not sure if i'm making any sense right now or if anyone else feels this way or has this problem...

Anyways! I hope this weekend is a good one. Started off tonight once again as a bummer. I get to sit home by myself which I hate doing, especially on a friday night. I work tomorrow morning which i'm not to psyched about but pretty used to it at this point. Then come home and keep myself busy until my friends birthday.. She's turning 21 and i'm so happy for her :) So, we'll meet there at about 6 stay there for a couple hours and then we have another birthday right after that. It should be fun. That's about all that I have planned for my weekend so we'll see what else happens. I really hope things slow down just a tad this fall, I feel like there is always something going on. Which is fine I just wish I had a couple free nights just to chill. I'm sure i'll have many of those in days to come. Well about now i've kind of exhausted my words and should probably stop complaining :) Tomorrow will be a better day!

It seems like no matter how much sleep I get or don't get I'm always tired. Sometimes I feel like fatigue is taking over my life and I'm not sure how to kick this. It takes so much energy for me to do things. It's so strange. I'm wondering if its summer allergies. I don't know but I'll be glad when they are gone.

Last night we went on a hike. It was AWESOME. Perfect view and it wasn't to hot. Good work out too.

School started this morning and it was also fantastic. I am a nerd and I love going to school. I'm only taking two classes, English online and Intro to Social work which is in class. I have a feeling that my social working class is going to be absolutely amazing. I can't wait to dig in to the material.

I talked to Seth about me taking a trip to California with a friend and it still amazes me every day how supportive he is about basically everything. He has so much good incite on things and it makes it so much easier to fully trust when I know he only has my best interest as an individual and our best interest as a couple in mind. It's comforting.

I'm going to be getting baptized here soon which is interesting to me since I've been going to church for my whole life. I'm excited for this.

Tonight we are going to the Twilight concert. It's the last one of the year. My teacher this morning made me laugh when she said "Do you ever feel like Summer has come and gone and you've totally missed it?" In all honesty first thought was YES but thinking about it, I've done more this summer than I have in quite a long time. I guess it would have been considered spring but went to California, have gone quite a few hikes, couple jogs outside, went to Lagoon, BBQ's, birthdays, and so much more. For once in my life I feel like I can finally say I've been pretty productive summer. As it's coming to an end I can't help but look forward to the fall. When we were hiking yesterday I saw some leaves already starting to change. I love it.

It's only Tuesday but I feel like the week is already coming to an end, which isn't a bad thing necessarily. Today I have a funeral which I'm not to psyched about but who ever is? Then tonight I'm having dinner with a friend. It's going to be fun and I think we'll have alot of good conversation. Tomorrow I hope to do something fun with Seth cause I won't see him for a few days. Well 5 to be exact, which sucks! Thursday is lagoon which I'm so excited for. It's been ages since I've gone to Lagoon. Friday I don't know what the night will bring and Saturday I hope to hang out with some old friends. Life seems to be flying by which is kind of comical seeing that I just had a conversation the other day about time moving slowly. I guess you just never realize. 

- School is going to be starting up again soon which i'm excited about. Every semester I tell myself that " I think i'll take the next semester off" but god knows if I did I wouldn't know what to do with myself. 

- Seth is leaving for California in just a little over a week and even though he's only going to be gone for the weekend i'm so bummed about it. I'm going to miss him. He'll have fun and i'm glad for that i'm just selfish sometimes in the thinking that I want to always be with him and spend time with him. We need time away sometimes, a healthy seperation... Why is that so hard for me to practice? 

 

I've said this before but i'll say it again, there are so many things to look forward to within the year. The biggest and most important change that will happen in my life, continuing school, meeting new people, seth hopefully moving down here to sl, and so much more. I'm looking forward to fall weather when I can wear cardigan sweaters, boots, and jeans again without feeling like i'm going to die of heat exhaustion. It's going to be a good fall and winter. It feels like the year can't come to an end fast enough but I know that's just me right now, it's going to come before I know it. I just need to be a little bit more patient. This month is kind of like the waiting month. Nothing is really going on this month. Waiting for school to start, I always look forward to it starting in the fall. Once that starts I think things will start moving quicker. It will be nice.

There are so many things to be excited about here... I was told that I need to stop worrying, finally someone tells me some good advice. I do need to stop, it's going to age me quickly. It makes a person tired and lonely when they worry, constantly of what others thing and what's happening in life. I'm in a rush for things that shouldn't be rushed and it's causing me to worry more. I need to take a step back and enjoy the little things that make life great.