Why is that we as people, even though we know something may be good for us and we know it will make us feel better tend to do the complete opposite. For instance, I'm in a downer mood today. I can admit, and I have been all day. Don't know why, it's just one of those days. I listen this morning to good uplifting music while i'm getting ready (casting crowns) and it lifts my spirits ultimately making the morning better. Why can't I do this every morning? Usually what is happening is I put on something that might be a tad harsher that ultimately ends up bumming me out more. Another big example... I'm tired all the time. When I feel like crap I know without a shadow of a doubt that if I go to the gym for an hour or so I will feel better. I know this from expirience. So, why wouldn't I do this all the time and why is it still SO hard for me sometimes to go to the gym. I'm not sure if i'm making any sense right now or if anyone else feels this way or has this problem...

Anyways! I hope this weekend is a good one. Started off tonight once again as a bummer. I get to sit home by myself which I hate doing, especially on a friday night. I work tomorrow morning which i'm not to psyched about but pretty used to it at this point. Then come home and keep myself busy until my friends birthday.. She's turning 21 and i'm so happy for her :) So, we'll meet there at about 6 stay there for a couple hours and then we have another birthday right after that. It should be fun. That's about all that I have planned for my weekend so we'll see what else happens. I really hope things slow down just a tad this fall, I feel like there is always something going on. Which is fine I just wish I had a couple free nights just to chill. I'm sure i'll have many of those in days to come. Well about now i've kind of exhausted my words and should probably stop complaining :) Tomorrow will be a better day!