This Halloween was kind of a bust... Friday we went to a Halloween party which I thought was fun. Seth hates Halloween but ended up dressing up anyways. His Costume, I though was awesome. Sue from Glee, it was hilarious. I was a lady bug which was cute. I woke up Saturday morning at 4:30 in the morning wishing my life was over. I felt awful. My nose was running, cough, sore throat, it was pure hell. I called into work, drank a gallon of orange juice by myself and ate oatmeal. I did go to church which was good but I had a hard time focusing. This was about the highlight of my weekend. The rest was spent in my room in my bed.

Thursday Seth moved out here to SL, it's nice having him so close. Weird that he's living with 3 boys, boy conversations are so weird and sometimes so boring. I'm happy though I hope he can adjust.

I can't believe today is Halloween. We are going to my grandparents and I can't wait to see the little kids in their costumes. It's going to be so cute!

November is tomorrow and I'm not ready for it. I have to start buying Christmas presents and I'm surely not prepared. This year has been so expensive and my finances have taken a dive. It's a scary thing.

Mine and Seth's Year is coming up on January First. I can't believe that we have been together that long already. It doesn't seem like it. It's great though and I'm loving every minute of it.

I got my hair done on Tuesday... I can't decide my feelings... Some day's I think I maybe like it but most days I'm not a fan, neither is my boyfriend, and not many others. I guess that's what you get when you think your being a little daring. For the time being I don't know what I'm going to do about it.

Tomorrow is the last day of our rock solid class. It's sad cause we've had some very blessed, intimate, and very beneficial conversations due to this class. That doesn't mean it has to end of course I just don't think it's going to be as often.

It's Friday, even though it doesn't feel like the weekend to me. We have church, birthday's and more birthdays.. How is it possible that we've been attending birthdays for the past at least 6 or 7 Saturdays. This needs to change, it's exhausting.

I should find out today about the position I interviewed for on Wed... It's so nerve racking waiting for the call and I have mixed feelings about the whole situation.

School is impossible and I want to stop going.. but I couldn't do that to myself.

After about a week in hiding, which consisted of hiding under blankets from the world, I still don't feel refreshed. At least I don't think so anyways. I don't remember much of the previous week. Just a lot of pain, soup, pills, and warm applesauce. When I woke up on Thursday or Friday, can't remember which, I was disappointed. Where did my week go? It went nowhere.

This week though I turned in two of the biggest projects for my classes. I'm not sure how confident I'm feeling about these. Although they weren't my best effort they were still done exceptionally well... I think anyways. Guess we'll have to wait for the grade. I just need passing grades, that's all I ask.

I feel bad for the girl who hates her life. She tells me day after day how she is nothing and she is doing nothing. And I say to her every time, why don't you change things? Why don't you end a relationship that is toxic to your life, why don't you go back to school because it will basically cost you nothing, why don't you do something. Why don't you do something more than just sit around with your boyfriend getting yourself into all kinds of trouble. Why don't you....

Things seem to be slowing down. Our last day of our rock solid marriage class is Saturday. I have to miss the end which I'm sad about but at least I get to do half. I've enjoyed it and have learned a lot through it. Just one more thing to check off the list to get married. It still doesn't seem real... yet.

High possibility of moving branches. We'll see how this goes. I'll be a lot busier which is good. I'll be closer to the city... which I hate.

Went to the Rock star Show at Usana last night it was a blast... Concerts make me want to go to more concerts. I am currently dying to see:

Paramore
The Killers

I would love to see again

Three days grace
Seether
The Hush sound
Basically any band I enjoy listening to.

I love concerts!

Day Dreaming....

I find myself day dreaming more often than not. I try not to but I can't help it! There are so many things to day dream about. My head is filled with images of different kind of futures but all are similar enough. Just things are changed and tweaked... They are comforting thoughts and I can't wait til they are reality. I'm feeling impatient... very impatient on whats coming up in the near future....

Just a little Recap of the weekend....

Friday we went and got Curry... again. I think it's going to be our new Friday tradition maybe switch it up sometimes though and get pho.. I had so much this weekend. Dinner Friday night, leftovers for lunch the next day, Saturday night when we went to Pei Wei (totally spelled that wrong I think) and then they had chicken curry sandwich's at the reception. To much! Anyways, so Saturday we went on a bike ride that literally almost killed me. We biked up Wasatch which was so hard. I ended up having to walk my bike up the hill for a little ways. It was fun though, I love doing these kinds of things. We went to church and then we went to dinner with Tim which was fun. Sunday We went and picked out a baby gift for Wesley and then we went and looked at the house Seth was considering moving into and guess what.... He is now for sure! I'll talk about that more in a second. I then had a baby shower and then went to Seth's sisters birthday right after that. Sunday evening was relaxing. We watched Grey's and Private practice and I was in bed by 10:30. It was nice. Now it's Monday and it's dragging just a tad but positive thing is that by Friday I will be free from work for 9 days. Oh I'm looking forward to that day.

So, Seth decided to move in with some guys from the church. They all seem like good people, I don't know them very well yet. I am so excited for this though. It is going to be so nice having him so close to everything. His job, friends, me, church, and everything else. One thing I'm excited for him though is that he will actually get to spend time there. Right now he is home very rarely. To sleep on the week days and for a couple hours Saturdays and Sundays. I know it wears on him and this should relieve stress in his life. This is going to be a good thing I hope, for his sake.

This week is going to be interesting and fun. Today I don't really have anything going on so that's nice. Tomorrow is school, work, and then taking Jess to a concert. Wednesday work then house church. Thursday Kay is getting her wisdom teeth out. Friday I have family flying in from California and Seth is also playing a concert in Provo. I really want to go but I'm not sure if I can. :( He said it was okay if I missed it but I hate missing things that he's doing. Maybe there is a way I can go to both. Saturday we have two weddings and I think that's about it. Sunday hopefully is a free day and maybe if the weather is nice we can do something. We'll see :)

This week the temp is dropping. I have so many things I want to buy for this fall but money is kind of tight with school. I can't wait though to be able to wear fall clothes. It's going to be great.

I know sometimes I'm hard to deal with, I'm working on that. I'm being taught an important lesson on patients and oh my is it difficult. There is and has been wedding talk in the air and I can't help but look forward to this. It's weird to think about cause looking back on my life I never felt like this was going to happen. It's happening though, and there is no hesitation in me. This is the lesson on patients. If I could I would love to be married tomorrow but realistically not possible. I need some patients and counsel in all these areas.

Last night we went and got Curry and I just can't explain how much I LOVE IT! I think I want this to be a tradition. Fridays are either Pho night or Curry night.

I don't really have much to write about today for some reason. Usually the words are just spilling from me. I haven't been feeling a 100% lately though and maybe that's why.