For some reason lately I've been thinking a lot and have come to the realization that I can not WAIT to have my own life. I love love love my family and everyone in it so much but I want my own space, my own house, my own clothes, my own shoes, my own life. Is that such a terrible way to think because sometimes I feel like I'm selfish because I feel like that. It's not that I don't like sharing it's just that no matter what I have it never seems to be my own. I've lived like this my whole life and I guess it never bothered me up until this point. The fact that when I need quiet I don't get quiet because a radio is literally blasting in the other room or the fact that I can't cook whenever I want (I've come to quite enjoy cooking and want to try much more) or that when I just want to be by myself it's impossible. I'm not trying to complain I'm just more or less saying that when that day comes when I can live with me and the person who I love most, it will be the most amazing feeling ever!
The weekend was good. t was a two day weekend which I don't get much anymore but it went by so fast I really don't know how. It was fun though and had a lot of good company. We went and saw a movie with some people from church and it was so fun. It feels so good to be invited and just to feel like you have friends in the church. I guess this is a foreign feeling to me because I've never been close to people in church in my life. But it's nice to surround yourself with good people. It makes me feel more grounded.
I'm seeing more and more changing leaves every day and it makes me so happy. I bought some boots today and I have never been more excited to buy anything in my life. I know know know I shouldn't have bought them considering I'm dirt poor right now but sometimes I have this little problem with buying things I know I really can't afford. That's why most of the time I stay as far away from the mall as I can. It's not a good place for me. I was fun though however, again great company with great people can make things so much more fun.
I hope this week goes well. It is a short week considering we had today off so we'll see! I should really be doing homework right now but I think I'm going to go to bed. I really want to try and go to the gym tomorrow morning. I need to get my act together in the health and fitness aspect of my life.
The weekend was good. t was a two day weekend which I don't get much anymore but it went by so fast I really don't know how. It was fun though and had a lot of good company. We went and saw a movie with some people from church and it was so fun. It feels so good to be invited and just to feel like you have friends in the church. I guess this is a foreign feeling to me because I've never been close to people in church in my life. But it's nice to surround yourself with good people. It makes me feel more grounded.
I'm seeing more and more changing leaves every day and it makes me so happy. I bought some boots today and I have never been more excited to buy anything in my life. I know know know I shouldn't have bought them considering I'm dirt poor right now but sometimes I have this little problem with buying things I know I really can't afford. That's why most of the time I stay as far away from the mall as I can. It's not a good place for me. I was fun though however, again great company with great people can make things so much more fun.
I hope this week goes well. It is a short week considering we had today off so we'll see! I should really be doing homework right now but I think I'm going to go to bed. I really want to try and go to the gym tomorrow morning. I need to get my act together in the health and fitness aspect of my life.
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