Today is my lat day at my company. A short Saturday, I still can't believe I'm leaving. It kind of makes me sad but I feel like I need a change in my life and I hope this will be a good change. I'll feel a little less like a professional grown up considering I'll be able to wear jeans to work every day now. I'll no longer have to be subjected to wearing slacks and dress clothes. Although, I have come to the realization these past three years that my work clothes are something a lot more comfortable than my street clothes sometimes. I'm looking forward to the new challenges that are going to be coming up.

Seth is still out of town and I'm starting to really miss him. This is the first time that we've spent this many days apart since we've started dating. I missed him on Thanksgiving, I missed him on Friday night, I'll miss him tonight and still tomorrow. I cannot wait til he gets home.

Kayla is staying strong on her break-up and I hope she continues too. She needs a good man that will love and respect her. She's been in this deep depression that's really been bumming me out. I know break ups are hard but I hope she snaps out of it soon!

Christmas is coming so quickly! My Christmas present to myself this year... New snow tires.. Hardly exciting at all! I wish I didn't need a car, that would clear up so many unwanted bills!

next month I will finally be an I phone owner. I have been stuck with a blackberry for the last several years of my life and although it's a good phone I am jealous of all the cool things that IPhone can do. I want one SO BAD. I've been quite patient about it though. I've waited for almost a year and a half to get out of my contract. Patients is becoming a great part of my life. If I wasn't working on my patients I would have already broken my Contract and switched carriers but I'm trying to be better about these things.

I bought a dress last night for the Christmas party and I love it. I'm a little worried about it but it's not tight and not to short much like most of the dresses these days. As I was searching I was feeling hopeless because I feel like the look these days is either skin tight and short or huge and resembling to a bag lady. I found one in between and bought for the first time a pair of heels. I actually really think they go well together. I am excited!

Life is always changing. I used to avoid this like the plague but I'm learning that change is good and necessary! I'm looking forward to all the life changes that will be coming up this next year.~

My time here at the Credit Union is coming to an end. It's weird considering I have been here 3 years this month. I'm hoping it's a good change.
Thanksgiving is tomorrow and I'm sad I don't get to spend it with Seth but, he is needed somewhere else this weekend. It will be good to spend time with the family.
Kayla broke up with her boyfriend after a long year of fighting and ridicules issues. She's having a hard time with it and I feel sad for her. I'll be here for her with whatever she needs. I want to make this as easy as I can on her. I know how this feels.
Christmas is just about a month away and I haven't even started shopping. Maybe I'll get the courage to go out on black Friday... Maybe not. That all depends on how I'm feeling at 12:00 at night! It might be an adventure.
Seth is on his way to California, I pray they have a safe drive. I'm going to miss him.

I feel like life has slowed down a lot since the summer, and particularly October. Instead of being insanely busy we often wonder what we are going to do or fill up our time looking at houses. We both equally can not wait until we have our own. For me, it's not even a house right off. I just can't wait to have my own place, my own space, my own stuff. I share everything which is how it's been most of my life but there is a point in someones life where sharing everything they own gets a little old. For the time being though, it must work.

This is the second real snowfall of the year and as much as I hate snow I hope this sticks around at least for Christmas. I really don't remember Christmas last year even having snow on the ground. It wasn't til January til snow poured on us. This Christmas is going to be fantastic.

I can't wait til New Years! New Years day me and Seth will have been together for a year. It seems silly to me to be so psyched for this but this is the longest consecutive relationship that I have ever had and I know that it is never going to end. We will celebrate many New Years but the first one is always the best. I'm just so blessed to be in such a solid, loving, and real love relationship. I've realized in my life that some people throw that word around like it means nothing. I didn't know what it meant to truly love someone until this year. I thought I did but I didn't.

I think it's funny how movies skew your perception of real life. They make us want things that are truly not tangible. We strive to make them close though. The thing is, the movies, they aren't real. They are just that, made up and a story line. I would prefer far more to live in reality than in some sappy made up love story.

So, I put in my two weeks today at my company.
It was one of the hardest things I've done in a while.
I'm sad but I am excited for this opportunity.
I hope it's the right one.
I'm excited for a new journey in my life.
I've been saying I need a change for a while.
Well, here it is. I'm going to make the most of it.
There are many changes happening in my life currently.
There are things that are becoming more and more important every day.
Trying to be responsible with my finances so things can happen
It seems so easy
To not spend money you really don't have on things that you really think you should have
but it's kind of hard.
I used to be a compulsive buyer and I'm doing better
with only weeks of practice.
I'm encouraged and life is moving along quite nicely.

I love the first snowfall of the year
there is quite everywhere
and the way snow glitters on the ground
before shoe prints impact it
a snowflake falls and lays
next to one completely different
and it's a beautiful day today

There is a happiness that has overtaken me...
I can't explain it but it's such a comforting feeling to me.
I think about things that are coming up in the future and I can't keep
my heart from feeling like it's going to burst out of my chest.
I'm working on a project right now that brings me so much joy
the past year of my life has been the most rewarding, loving, and best
year that I have ever experienced. No more looking down on life
because I've realized that there is nothing to look down upon
there are trials and things that sometimes aren't the best
but to let them ruin your days is pure craziness.
I no longer look at the glass half empty
and I have loving caring and good people in my life that I can count on
I have changes coming up in the near future
that I am ecstatic for and the patients is wearing on me
but it will be here before I know it and it will be the best day of my life.

The holidays are here and I am not prepared but I'm so excited.
I remember when I was little and it felt like Thanksgiving and Christmas
where never going to come. As I get older though they creep up on me
and before I realize it they are here. I am already starting to Christmas shop.
I am so excited to give Seth his gift and I hope he likes it.
New Years will be here before we know it.
Jan 1st is our one year anniversary and I can't believe it.
I can not wait to spend the rest of my life with him.

I feel like I'm starting over with my goals with the gym and eating healthy. I don't  know really what happened. I know that it had been a couple weeks since I had made it to the gym I just didn't feel like my body had taken that much of a toll. Looking in the mirror though it seems like it has. I'm unhappy with the way I look right now. This needs to change. Nov 1 was a start over and I pray that I stay consistent and am able to get back to where I was.

Nov 1: cardio 30 and weights
Nov 2: cardio 20 and weights

School is so overwhelming right now. I can't wait til this semester is over. Only it will start again shortly after that.